All of this came on my departure from social media, particularly Twitter. I've been watching and reading. I also took down the majority of this blog. I need to get my head down. My mental health is taking a hit and the personal and professional inconvenience of being doxed and harassed is getting extreme. Here's what is happening now.
Bank Accounts, Retirement Doxxed.
Somehow a former journalist turned hate-monger named Michael Balter obtained my personal records. It is not hard to do. Paul Thacker and University of California San Francisco posted my social security number a few months ago. Once you have that, you find my birthday and mom's maiden name and you can pretty much have access to my private everything. Couple this to FOIA laws and you have access to my life. Every single word.
I had to change my bank account number two days before going to Europe, meaning no debit card or access to cash. All autopay had to be reset, and of course is screwed up and bills are late. Just a pain.
Now he has posted my personal financial information concerning my retirement holdings.
I don't come from money. My father is still working at 72. I had student debt until I was 40-something. I also worked in public science, starting with a Ph.D. plus 5 years of experience at a wage made by a good librarian.
I don't have a pension. My retirement is self-financed, and it is on the horizon. My wife is not a Wall Street banker. She's a fruit and vegetable farmer that sells at farmers markets. We are comfortable, but not wealthy. We live in a double-wide mobile home in the country (town of 1000) and our costs and expectations are modest. We buy a lot of plants and go out to dinner on Saturday night. We have about 40 fruit trees.
Early on I learned to invest in myself. I started investing in my retirement at the age of 16 when I spent part of my summer work money on the company that marketed Jolt Cola. A brilliant move it would turn out. That company is now part of InterBev the international giant.
Over the years I sacrificed many things to plan for the day I would not work. I invested in diverse interests, all with high dividends and low risk. I saved a large part of my income. Years later I would lose half of what I invested in a divorce, which severely affected my plan. So it goes.
Now Michael Balter is distributing my personal financial information on the web, and it is being further distributed by the anti-GMO world, nice folks like GM Watch.
They note that I own shares of Bayer. Damn right I do. I bought them right after their price tanked when the glyphosate decisions came down. I still have faith in science and reason, and believe that this reaction is temporary and a company's true value will ultimately be realized. Plus a great dividend. I'd recommend it!
But this brings us to two important questions-
1. Why do they feel that my family's retirement is their business?
2. Why do they think it is appropriate to distribute it on the internet?
It is a profound sense of violation. It disgusts me that people hate me so much, and want to stop me so much, that they use this kind of tactic to intimidate me. That's what this is. They can't stop me with lies, distortions, or threats. They manufactured newspaper articles based on lies and spread their filth in social media.
But hacking your family's retirement information and making it public? It is purely to intimidate, to remind me that I have no privacy and will never have privacy until I resign from science and hide somewhere. This is their goal.
At this point I am unsure what to do. I need help. The rage I feel is immense and I have to fight every impulse to strike back. I'm not a religious guy, but I think of the lessons from when I was a kid, and find them very poignant right now.
Forgive them, for they know not what they do.
Then the words my therapist gave me, "Time will be kind."
MAMyths and Kavin Senapathy
These folks hate me so much and I'm not sure why. Allegedly science-friendly types are using the same tactics used by the science hate groups. Last night I read on Twitter that MAMyths was organizing a page about me. I saw it in a tweet and clicked the link.
I could not believe what I was seeing. It was a page dedicated to me, all hateful news, allegations, and everything they could find that was negative. And Kavin was fishing for more dirt. They since took down the page, but luckily I grabbed screenshots. Unbelievable.
I saw this link and clicked it-- a hateful page dedicated to me. What is wrong with these people? What do they want? Science Justice?
Again, I don't care about Kavin, Stephan or Karl or any of those folks. They can do their thing, I'll do mine. But why do they feel that they need to harm my ability to do good work, especially when it helps others understand science?
Fake Troll Accounts
Look at the Twitter accounts @RailaerAouy (you are a liar backwards) and @EvelynGreenburg. Both are relatively recent accounts, the people behind them are using FOIA to harass me, and the Twitter feeds are dedicated to my harassment.
These folks should get a life. I'm not that important.
I was very torn about writing this. I don't want to give them the attention they crave. But I feel that there is no other recourse other than exhibiting their disgusting behavior. Are these the folks that represent you? Your ideas? People you find represent your values and superb ethics?
I've had to do a lot of soul searching and frankly don't want to do this anymore. But that's what they want. Their goal is to harass and intimidate me out of teaching, research, outreach, social media, or all of the above.
The way forward will be decided soon. I just hate what an important discussion about food security, farming, and technology has become. I never thought it could get any worse, and indeed it has.